This is a deep one! 

For me it would be the mask of confidence. I come across confident and fearless, yet due to being bullied, mentally and emotionally abused for 2 years, it still comes back to haunt me every so often. there are moments when I am happy and genuinely confident and, on a roll, and suddenly self-doubt, self-criticism and anxiety causing me to freeze and not think properly. I feel stupid, incompetent, useless and worthless. It's so scary and debilitating and which only leaves me angry and frustrated with myself because I know, this is not me. I feel like a dumbed down diluted version of me that I don't recognise. It's sad how one person and destroy another so easily with their words and actions. 

I realized it is a work in progress and knowing that I am aware of this, I can work on the problem. There are times I am myself and it feels great and I have learned, with the help of Nolan to connect with this feeling every time I feel the self-doubt creeping in. 

I am authentic, brave, bold, confident, daring, intelligent, opinionated, witty, funny and kind. I loved the person I was before this happened to me, I miss her and I am working on getting her back.